I am so weak. I fell for it again. H texted me again. That he has wanted me for 20 years, wanted the girl who would dress up to go out, the girl who couldn't get enough of him, the girl who would talk to him about everything. He tried to hold on waiting to get her back, fighing to get het back, but eventually it hurt too much and he shut down all emotions.
I fell for it, texted back, that I wish I could change history, that I can see that girl inside me.
He is rewiring our history, to a degree. I did stop paying as much attention to him, after kids came along. But I didn't completely shut him out.
I know, work on me, GAL, one day at a time. But even if we do end up working on R, I don't think he will ever think it's anythig more than my fault.
