Joining gym. Reconnected with an old friend and we go to the gun range regularly.
So far that's it.
I am worried that you are going to drive yourself into the ground trying to 'unlock' the mystery of your situation. I was just like you when I started here. I thought that my XW was a puzzle to solve. That if I just did or said the right things in the right order and acted in just the right way....that voila...she would come to her senses and choose me.
Unfortunately, it doesnt really work that way. She, just like your W, had her own road to travel down. And any brainpower you spend trying to manipulate or predict that road is wasted. Truly the best thing you can do is let her walk her way and focus on your own road.
With that said, I would turn your focus towards your GAL. And not just hanging out with your friends and shooting the [censored]. I mean going out and doing NEW things and meeting NEW people. Rebuilding your 'swagger' is so difficult and yet so critical at this stage. Obsessing about every little detail in the sitch is exhausting and self-defeating.
