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[joejoe1]

Gisela,

You have to grieve the old M, it's dead and gone. The faster you realize that the faster the healing start. You are having a hard time detaching because you are holding on to the old M. You have to start to focus on healing and working on a new R and future new M. As long as you hold on to the old one you will not be giving your all to healing yourself and giving yourself the best chance to create a new and better M.

There's no going back.

And yes, detaching is one of the hardest thing you are going to have to do, it's that way for most of us. Letting go of something you have made such a high priority of your life is never easy, but the only way to get to the progress is letting go.