He is so frustrated with me. And, I know he does not want to discuss anything.
Today though was the first day he said that he had no plans on filing. I didn't know that.
He wants to get out and be alone. He wants his own place. Interestingly enough he did say 1)you wouldn't see your neighbors if the house was placed right - that is something I told him some time ago that I wanted in a home. I live in a subdivision but my piece of land is the best! You don't look out your window and see your neighbors house. I love that!!! So here he is looking at buying property and he remembers this about me???
He wants to be responsible for his own bills.
He said I cannot leave now because my son has two years left of school. If we are still together then I could find a new job and relocate.
He isn't thinking D right now (but he maybe after today... he is so sick and tired of this conversation and how I jump up and make rash decisions means I am not listening.)
I would like to think I could calm down. Still waiting on book to arrive.
I'm in my late forties and live in Midwest. I work full time taking care of animals for 24yr. Its sound lame but I love doing laundry for a family of 5... love it. I love to vacuum. I love keeping my home neat and tidy. I felt its the least I could do for my husband since he drives so much.
It was like my second job. My husband could help out but I would always snap at him. I think because it was like if he had to help I had somehow let him down and wasn't doing my job. But, why would I snap??? I would make him feel bad and I didn't want that. I just wanted to know I was doing a good job for him?
My close friends live 5hr away. I don't have much of a support group here. I don't go out except with my family. I tried joining a meet up group and will be going to something this weekend but it feels so forced and fake. The other stuff - motorcycle, test drive cars, that doesn't feel fake. That stuff feels like me. The real me. The me who used to met my husbands needs.
