Saying ILY...

[mtb1981]

I know what everyone has been saying here is right. Why does it have to be so hard? I guess my fear is that by kicking her out and filing for D, is that it's all just over. But at this point, I guess there isn't much of another choice. I'm thinking she doesn't want to start MC until she has a place bc then she can continue to keep the fantasy going. If she stays here, it would all come to a halt. She knows how committed I am to our M, and she is taking advantage of that fact. Thinking I'll just sit by waiting for her to get whatever this is out of her system, and then she can just come back home whenever she feels like it. I hate having to do this bc she has always been very stubborn, and I'm nearly positive that she will just move forward with the D. That way she can continue to play the victim and have this all be my fault. But at this point, she doesn't want it anyway...