Today was not a good day. He has been cold and distant the last 2 days and we ended up in a conversation about R. Not good.
In leaning on his friends he thinks I am being fake. I am buttering him for something or I am allowing him to remain trapped by getting him a motorcycle so that he can't leave.
He said his defenses are WAY up. That he doesn't think its real. That his defenses are up so high that is nothing I can do to penetrate them right now.
Ugh... does that mean forever?
He talks about being alone. He doesn't want to ask my son to move in the last 2yr of high school so he won't even go there. He made one comment about having his own place for 2yr.
He says he is not afraid to be alone but I am. I said I am not and was alone for years when came into my life. Being alone [censored] but I can do it. I told him I don't want to give up on this marriage. I think we can get through this crisis.
I'm all over the place.
I know who I am but I feel so frustrated that he won't even give me a chance to work through this crisis.
