I am sorry to hear this. You have done your best to keep the family together. You are strong, brave and beautiful. Your babies love you and that is what matters.
Reading your post brought back the feelings I had when I thought I failed the boys. It is not us who have failed though. You have tried everything you could to reach out and communicate to hold the family together.
There will be a whole new set of feelings and emotions now through the D process. I hope you have better and more tranquil in days to come.
(((Sara)))
H-46 XW-38 T-7 M-6 S-9,8,8,6,4 S 11/30/15, I filed 12/8/15 EA 2/1/16 D dismissed 3/24/16 PA 3/18/16 confirmed 4/22/16 XW files for D 4/1/16 - D final 11/17/16 Finally moving forward...