Thanks N......I am happy with myself and my confidence is really strong. I still have some weak moments from time to time and thoughts of my STBXW flare up but they are getting less and less. Walking is becoming a lot easier. I had dinner at a friends house last night and they asked if I had thought about starting to date yet. I told them I have had those thoughts but at minimum I wanted to wait until the D was final and even when it is I still don't think I am quite ready yet.
I will admit that I am finding it slightly challenging to completely let go but I think that has more to do with me and fulfilling my vows until the end. For example, we are trading cars tonight so I got the one I am driving serviced for her so she wouldn't have to mess with it for a while. I know probably not my responsibility but I find myself doing things like that so when the D is final I can walk away with my head held high. I do it for me, not necessarily for her but I still possess those husband instincts. I am hoping that once the D is final something will click in my brain that will allow me to say that my journey is complete.
