Ideally I would like to have my kids with me equal time, but this would require having a another place to live with 3 bedrooms, unless the kids share a room.
As you said, "ideally", that would be great. In reality, you may have to settle for a smaller place until your finances allow a bigger one. But since it will be an all male camp.....that should not be too bad.
I'm not trying to make light of a sad situation. Just trying to help you see that you may have to start with small steps to get to where you want. That is how I have found life to be for me.
((hugs))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!