I understand the concern about being stuck with "bills" but frankly he hasn't already left because he wants to be certain that financially I will be okay. Right now its the only reason he is still in house - that he tells me.
Again, today he says he is stressed about finances. We are okay. Push comes to shove and we have a emergency fund of $12k. That would take care of the timeshare if we were desperate. We are not. This sudden shift does scare me. It must be because in his head he has and end date in mind when he is out the door and wants funds to be able to do so? That has to be it.
Anyway I went to work and then my drive. I get a text. Why was the NRA website pulled up on my computer? Hmmm... hadn't know I left it up and was he checking up on me?
He couldn't give me 5min to answer my text... he was calling me. Both behaviors are not like him.
Long story short my H is an avid outsdoorsman with a variety of firearms. I never know what he is talking about and I've never fired a weapon. I was searching to find local place that would teach me to shoot if I didn't own my own handgun. This was my 180... now busted.
As I am explaining this to H he simply said he doesn't own a handgun which I told him I already knew that. H then said why didn't I just ask him to teach me? H said I have never shown interest before which I acknowledged. H said come home and we will talk about it. I said I still had things I needed to do before coming home.
I had plans to stop by a certain store that I did not want my husband to know I was going. I didn't want him to think I was trying to score brownie points with him. It was truly for me which is why I kept it secret. I had my alone time in the store and then ran another errand.
Came home H asked about why I wanted to learn to handle a firearm. I stated I'm always clueless when he rambles about this and that and I have never even picked up a gun. I said I never asked before because I thought he would say no or wouldn't have the patience with me. H seems like he is okay with it but then goes "its expensive" again to fire bullets... they cost money.
In my head I'm like here is an activity we can do together to rebuild something but I don't say that. Instead I just let him know if he can't then he can't and let it go. I will see if he brings it up again.
He was totally annoyed I went to his favorite store without him but I reminded him that he has never taken me there and I thought I should go for myself. He said he would have gone.
I know and H knows I want things fixed. I lack patience. I feel if we have a good weekend that should be the end of it but I know in my heart of hearts it is not and he is still planning his escape... "new me" or not.
