JujuB, what you are writing doesn't make me feel better currently, but I carefully listen to you. Hoping my next questions are not too personal or painful.

Might you give me an idea what the truth about your husband's double life was?

It is so hard to let go if the person who wants to separate moves so extremely slowly like my H. For me it feels like dying or being amputated in instalments. And from each and every phase where nothing happens, I draw hope that this process has come to an end and we might start to return. Do you know people with the willpower to let go and accept the probably inavoidable future BEFORE the amount of facts cannot be ignored anymore? I mean the issue is all about "probably".