Picking up Her MESS #2

[marina7]

Journaling,

What is sleep for LBS lol, well yesterday I pick up s9 and he runs out W car and runs to me mommy mommy... I Love to hear his voice W for the first time said is that s8 and d9 in the car I said Yes W ask can I say Hi to them I said of course. I wish W knew how much she is loved. W spoke in a soft voice like her old self but I know not to read to much into it.

Well yesterday was lent we has fish sandwich s9 ask mom did you go to church for ash we replied yes we did s9 said we did to me and mom only. I smiled and my heart felt warm. I look at my friend and said God is good all the time. God has been hearing my prayers.

Not sure if many WAW lose faith but mines did at one point W yelled what has God done for me I then knew W was in a dark place because God has always been with us the last 10yrs and W made sure we went to church, light up a white candle God has always Been with us so to hear W in the beginning yell that I knew it wasn't her.

Since the BD my faith has been more than what it was I knew all this is happening for a reason like my mom says Follow the process and don't question it let God lead you. Three things you must always remember.
1.God had nothing to do with this
2.Don't lose faith
3.God has a plan he never leaves us
I know many of us have question why me God or other things when we lose someone or when things are just going wrong. Through this my faith is stronger, I have had a spiritual awakening. I have grown from this and I understand God nothing to do with this. As I written before we do pray for W alot and we have a white candle lit up for W in my house and in prayer we ask to lead W back into his arms (God). I believe in my heart and soul that only W and God could help her through this. So we will keep praying.

When s9 said W went to church I have to say s8 and d9 eyes lighted up.

Am so proud if W if she is going to church. I pray she will see the light.