Getting ready to move forward

[petri]

Thanks J.

I really need to go through sandi's rules again and again. I've gone by them for a good time. I should have declined the R talk. I was doing pretty good up to that point. She caught me guards down. How can I be so fudging stupid? I just need to get up and do what I did before.

Hopefully we get the house sold fast so I can really start to move forward b/c this current sitch is killing me. And that way I can go as dark as possible. And I have something that's really mine. For the first time in my life.

My kids have started to lie and steal(from friends). W says it's all b/c of their age. And maybe so. Maybe I see everything through D glasses right now.

Now I have to print sandi's rules and tattoo them to my brain. It's funny how I've told people here that marriage is just an institution and there's no need to be afraid of it. And here I am...scared sh**less. How stupid is that?

"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But when you hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fall apart, that's true strength."