He is rewriting SOME history BUT he is not rewriting that.
Its true. We would be on a road trip and I would hold his hand but at times I want to chill and knit. He would reach across to hold my hand and I would say I just want to knit for a bit. He made statements like "you know one day my hand won't be there". Of course I did not take that to mean that he would leave me... I thought of more like = hey one day I may be dead and you will miss not holding my hand.
He would come home to put his arms around me and I would say - hey I got to go pee... seriously? What wrong with me?
He would come home early and crawl into bed and put his arms around me and I was -hey I just want my last 25min of sleep before I have to get up. AGAIN - what was wrong with me???
I would give anything for him to do those things now but he won't touch me. Says he never wants to touch me again.
Says he will never let me back in because he never wants to be hurt like ever. He will never allow it.
I see my mistakes. I've had my wake up call. I made some changes but he says he no longer feels the same.
He was by no means a perfect husband but I miss so many things and ache for them because while he may be here he is no longer present.
I'm certain there is no one else. He has said some very hurtful things and he swears honesty above all else and he assures me there is no physical or emotional A.
