Joe, yes, that's exactly right. It's like you read my mind. And now I'm sitting alone in my grief all day with no sense of where I'm headed or where I belong. So you're right it's about figuring out a new purpose in life.
There is one positive thing to report though. I realized all these months since my husband left there's a guy friend in my life who has been encouraging me. I don't know how many times I've texted him when I'm totally broken and he calls right away. He's never gotten tired of hearing me say the same things over and over. He's done some extra special things for my daughter and I lately. I realized here's this guy who's doing everything within his power to make me feel better and all I think about is my husband who walked out the door. I don't know if this guy will ever be more than a friend, but now I really appreciate him. For the first time in six months, one day passed where I wasn't totally in tears or struggling to breath when I realized someone cares so much. I think we all need someone like that if we don't have direct family to help us in these times. Somehow I feel just a little better even though I know the actual divorce process will be difficult.
