Thank you for the pep talk Accuray. The part I am struggling with the mostis detaching. I'm guessing that it's so difficult for me (I do well for 2 or 3 days, then fall back to the pursuit) is the fact that he still is at home. As much as I don't want H to move out on the 1st, I also can't wait so that it is not "in my face" every day. When I didn't see him for 3 days this past weekend, I actually did quite well.
What you describe of him and guilt, it's dead on. Even he said in the beginning that he felt guilty for doing this to his family. Now it seems he can't get away from us fast enough.
It has been almost 2 months since BD. My question is how long does the grieving last? I know that I need to GAL, do 180's, detach. But picking myself up from the grief I'm finding is incredibly hard.