Thank you all for the responses. You are all very right. I have not done this very well at all. I glob on to anything I detect as positive and then downward spiral when the inevitable other shoe drops.

I will resolve myself to fixing that and move toward a complete detachment, GAL, and 180.

I feel like this all is too much. The drugs, depression, MLC, waywardness, and all the other baggage that 19 years of marriage brings to the table is too big of a mountain to climb. I know baby steps. But man is this hard.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018