Since my last post, W has initiated talks about the past. She brings up events that I feel were non-issues, but seem to be now. I feel she is initiating the talks to justify wanting D. I do feel she is revising history on the things she brought up. I didn't tell her that, but tried to take everything she said as being true, listening, but then giving her my perspective. She reiterated multiple times that she still wants a D. Talks were calm.
She also brought up that she was asked on a date. She asked me whether I was mad. I said "No, I can't blame the guy if you aren't wearing your ring." I asked her if he was someone I knew. She said "No". She then proceeded to say that she's not ready to date yet, but that it's going to happen for the both of us. I take her telling me this as her being open and honest and/or preparing me for things to come.
She said that people tell her I'm an attractive guy. I told her I'm not even thinking about seeing other people right now, and I told her it is going to be difficult to see her with someone else. She volunteered that she hasn't been "physical" with anyone.
For Valentine's Day, I had the kids make her a card. I'm going to buy a single rose to include with the card. I'm ready for here to react negatively and possibly take it as pursuit from me, but I want to raise my kids to love their mom.
This morning, she said that she is having anxiety not being around the house more for the kids. I asked her whether she thought I was preventing her from having access to the kids. She said "No", but she got a bit uncomfortable based on the tone of her voice, and said that when the house is sold and she's able to buy her own house, the boys will be with her half the time. I tell her it will be difficult not seeing the kids half the time. She says that she made a doctor's appointment and wants to go on anti-anxiety meds.
I'm starting to think more that she hasn't finished her MLC starting back with BD1 like job suggested early on. The title of this topic shouldn't include "second cycle". All of this time, she's been in replay and possibly entering into depression now.
