A Father, that was called a Super Hero-Wolverine

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Holding, I am pleased to hear you found the paradox of value. I have dropped by your pad and shared more.

Blu...my dear friend, Blu.

I am delighted to see that you are one of the first to greet me as I return to the neighborhood. I have thought of you often and had you in my heart and prayers. You were a connection here that opened up many delightful and deep conversations that I have thought on frequently and continued to learn and evolve with.

I have only caught up on your most recent happenings and am pleased to see you standing tall and proud so quickly after falling to the canvas.
I am truly pleased to hear you are doing well and have turned a corner of such and are charging into the heart of it all to come out the champion that you are.

I took leave of of this place to seek out new frontiers for healing and growth. I admit that I did not intend to walk from here so soon, but as I wandered just out of earshot, I realized I was out further than I had realized...I began to turn back, but curiosity caught me and I ventured further into new places to seek out wisdom, answers and...to see if I could stand up on my own.
Yes, my approach is all in. It can drain the battery and deplete the energy quickly. But I push on.

Today I stand stronger and more confident. I have discovered new lands and people that raise me up...and provide me the opportunity to do the same for them...because I have the tendency to go all in, I am cautious to balance out what I can hold up and what may bring me to my knees. I am finding new strengths and talents that had remained hidden to me.
New chapters have been written in my story.
There is change and shift in me...and all around me.
I see life with a new curiosity...I enjoy the moment...I am more aware than I ever have been.
I am more willing to sit alone with my fears...to look at them with curiosity...to make friends with them.
There are many of them, so it may take some time to acquaint with each of them, but I take time to do so...

I am a proud father of two of the most amazing young ladies that are accomplishing things I never believed possible just a couple of short years ago. This gives me new energy each day! I dare say, that the blessings and silver lining of the what has happened has opened my eyes to possibilities that I never would have known or believed possible.

I don't know what the future holds for me...and frankly that is not a concern in this moment...I have today to focus on.
The past is no longer a demon that haunts me...it tries too...but I know that my past is not as clearly remembered as the BS stories that the mind oft tries to tell me.
Not living in the past...and looking into the future with hope...can really change the perspective of all that is around one self.

I am truly grateful for the woman that is my former W. She partnered with me to bring into this world two angels that have taught me the value of living each day fully, and charging into the unknown with faith that all will be well, and as we put in the work to accomplish what we go after...win lose or draw, we triumph.

Blu, you ask if I will stay...I desire to share forward the compassion and wisdom that so many shared with me. These halls were a God send for me in the darkest moments of my life. I owe it to those that stood beside me and helped lift me up. And I make every effort to do so...I will will be around.
How often? We shall see. I tend to wander and now life beckons that I continue to venture and explore. But I will not forget the places that helped me cement foundations to stand up on.

My prayers to everyone going through a hell that I know to well.
Chin up
Nurture the light within
It can be better
Your choice.