And still struggling... this constant state of limbo is taking it's toll. Sleeping alone I only have my thoughts for company and they're invariably negative. I often have a word with myself to turn the tide but it's short lived. I know it will get better with time, but it's hard to see a light at the end of it all when you're entrenched.

I found out yesterday that the OW is 23. This affected me badly as I could see how deep in the fog W is and how can I sit idly by and watch her make the biggest mistake of her life.

W said to me that she is going to cinema tomorrow with her university friends. This is an obvious lie. It's valentines and she's never been out with them before. She's also seeing OW on Sunday for her birthday.

I think I'm going to have to initiate LRT, but no idea how when she's in the same house and currently, I do nearly everything - cooking, washing, ironing, cleaning, school stuff, feeding the cat etc.

Any advice gratefully received.


Married 9, Together 16
M:39, W:41, S:11, S:7
BD: 12/3/2017
In house sep: 1/7/2018
EA: March 2017 (ongoing), PA: Yes
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