Thank you all for the feedback and for reposting my post, JOb.
I've been thinking about it and I do believe I should give it another try. We have a date next Sunday. He's planned it out and asked me if it is OK if he picks me up and I said it was fine. He's a nice guy. He told me about his 7 year relationship where he never popped the question and got very complacent, which was the end for his live-in GF. He says he makes big notes never to get complacent again and take note of little details. I saw my patients this weekend and brought my chocolate lover 2 chocolate cookies and he asked me how he liked the cookies. I told him, he was a man after my own heart because we both love chocolate. He said "definitely noted. In the past I would have missed that, but you should be expecting chocolates in the future." I believe he really just wants SOMETHING to work out. He is eager. I wish he would have waited to kiss me. But maybe it will get better, who knows. I won't know unless I gave it a chance.
I was shaken by my unconscious reaction with the tears. It wasn't that the sparks weren't flying all over the place, I just don't know why it triggered tears.
I went to lunch with my cousin the next day and she asked me if I was comparing him to my other guys. I said no, I am comparing myself to the way I,MYSELF FELT with these other guys.
As far as why I looked on FB? Because I run as close as I can to an FBI check to these guys, lol. A FB page could say a lot. When you have had a guy convicted of being a sexual predator of sorts ask you out, and you have had an encounter for someone who is on trial for rape (not OLD, but still) You check these guys out! I've got a kid! So, on FB he made posts a lot about looking for HOT chicks and even in person told a story and referenced how "hot" a woman is. I am no feminist, and I am certainly no prude, but it turned me off. He also had a rant on FB about how he was sick of paying for dinners on online dates and he will only leave it drinks or he thinks the woman should be paying half, which I get, because I am sure it gets pricey for these guys. It was his attitude towards it. And he also had some rant on FB about people being late. I arrived at 8:03 and he said "for someone who lives very close, how can you be late?" He said it was a joke, but I know it wasn't.
Don, to speak to what woman might thinking/saying about you after a first date, well, they aren't all going to like the way you kiss or do certain things, and others may love the way you kiss or be totally comfortable with your interactions. I am sure there are guys I have kissed, but didn't like it. We aren't going to be liked by all and what one person adores about you, might drive another person crazy.
So, in a nutshell, everyone of you are right (and hello Ciluzen!). I think if he would have held off on the kiss, I might have not had that reaction. So, on a date we go next sunday. We are going bowling, for drinks, then an early dinner. We shall see how it goes.
Believe it or not, the longer you are alone (been a darn long time for me) the pickier you get, not more desperate. And yes, I am afraid of actually going too long single, because I may need Mr. Perfect to come along to be willing to share my life.
