Finding my way into the light

[Holding]

C'Nut, JujuB, and Focus, thanks for the encouragement on meditation.

C'Nut, the program for that website looks interesting. I see there are several weekly meetings in my town, and I'm going to try to work one into my schedule.

JujuB, if you had to recommend just one app, would it be Calm or Headpace?

Ah, interesting...the aim of meditation might not be calming yourself? That might just be a by product of it?

Maybe try and think of the aim of meditation as becoming aware of your feelings and physical reactions to them?

Good point! Becoming aware of my feelings is a good place to start, if nothing else. I will admit the old me was guilty of stuffing my feelings down in order to get through life.

XW continues to bombard me with messages on familywizard, with about 3/4 of them being either some kind of strongly worded request or calling me out on violating a made up rule. She was going on about being amicable for months, but that's completely flown out the window now. I've learned I have to simply limit the number of times a day I will even look at the messages.