As I follow along with your sitch I feel for you. The cycling emotions all the time, the looking for answers, it is tough. You were the first person to comment on my sitch and show compassion and understanding of what I was going through. You and everyone else here has helped me tremendously, I am forever grateful. I do not have much advice, but I am here, I understand, and I care.
It is very interesting getting some answers and insights from when your h was young. That is indeed rare. I hope it brings some clarity.
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
