Good to hear from you! Detoxifying is a great way to look at it. I am doing my best to just feel it, talk it out in my head and then move on with my thoughts. I don't want to push them away in case they need to be dealt with. I just can't believe how often they are coming up. It used to be on and off here and there but it has become pretty constant.
I definitely believe my spinning is a combination of wanting a D, talking with MIL and our upcoming trip. It's just like around the holidays when I start feeling anxious.
Emotionally constipated is head on with my H. He has never been able to show emotions, comfort or have deep talks. I see it in his parents, a need to always appear happy and well to a point where it is fake. However, MIL has been in therapy on and off since I have known her, about 20 years, and she is becoming pretty open with me, which is refreshing because she was one of the fakest of them all.
Anyway, I will keep moving along and get through this. Our 18 year anniversary of getting together is coming up on Monday, along with the dreaded Valentines day on Wed. I hate that holiday!! Lol I think I should plan something special with S and my fur babies on those days like I usually do.
Have a great weekend M
Me 48 H 46 S 11 M 2004 BD 8/13 H moved out 2/15 -live in the present, enjoy the beauty around and within you, explore your new future-
