A grateful heart..

[Sotto]

Thanks for your kind comments Coly, Job and Own it. I don't post that often now as you know and it is always nice to know that people are reading along and posting back :-)

Life is good with me. I had a virus that took a while to shake and that was a bit hard going. You know when you've been ill for a little while and just have to decide - oh well life goes on and drag yourself around! My social life was the thing that suffered, and it was nice to feel better this week and able to do my usual social activities.

Work has been up and down and I am trying to bring about an internal shift relating to th work I have been doing. I feel that others feel I should know things - when I know some things but not others. Lately, I have been telling myself I know a lot more than I did. I don't know everything and it is a steep learning curve. It has helped to look at the self-talk aspect of this.

Mum is generally doing okay and I am grateful for her company and the time we have with her. There has been a change in part of the usual care arrangements and Dad asked if I could help with the extra. I thought about it and my response was - I just can't offer that. I knew it would be too much and I told him that. I feel bad about it, but I do a lot already and I just didn't have that in me. So, I'm just settling myself with that one - as you know I don't find it easy to say no!!!

My friendship with the guy I re-met is growing. I went out to an event this weekend and he was there. We spent some nice time together and he texted me the next day to say thank you and he enjoyed it. And he asked if I wanted to get together for a walk that day, but I couldn't make it. I'm having some friends over next weekend and I have invited him to that. He made a sort of general response - generally positive - and I'm really not sure if he was saying yes, no or maybe?! I guess time will tell.

I like that he initiates and genuinely seems to want to see more of me. Also, I feel I'm not really looking for a life partner - someone to marry, co-join finances, cohabit - at least not in the short to medium term. So, I feel quite relaxed about things really, and it nice to feel that interest from someone. I don't know that much about his story - though I know he is D'd and split up with a GF last year. So, I guess there are some things to learn there.

It's school holidays here next week, and I'm taking SS and a friend out to lunch, which should be nice. Me and my holiday chums have also been making some nice plans for our Autumn trip. One of the guys wants to make us some nice local dishes and we are thinking of getting along to a local dance class too....

Love and best wishes to you all xxx