I could have written much of your post. I too wonder how much more flirting and/or infidelity went on during the marriage that I didn't know about. And now, 9 years after he split for good, his character flaws are glaring. My life is good, even though I've had my share of dating adventures (or misadventures, depending on how you look at them lol), but I don't lack for male companionship if I want it. I have a nice home, room for my mom and two of my three adult children who live with me right now, and I don't miss my ex, even though we were together for 26 years. I like steering my own ship and I've done pretty well. I've grown in many ways.
Btw, have you thought of getting a roommate to help with that mortgage? The Golden Girls looks like a smart arrangement to me now!
