The mask is confident (almost bravado) and the effect is confidence. It tricks you.
Confidence born of arrogance is a mask, a facade presented to the outside world. It is often referred to as the ego. It is how the person wishes themself to be seen.
Colloquially defined :
The part of you that defines itself as a personality, separates itself from the outside world, and considers itself (read: you) a separate entity from the rest of nature and the cosmos. Perhaps necessary for survival in some evolutionary bygone, in modern times it leads only to (albeit often disguised) misanthropic beliefs and delusion.
The question therefore is why did after having one experience, did you fall for a second? And would that happen again?
You are mapped for a certain type of mate, we all are. That mapping can change if you know what it is. Uncovering a mask isn't easy though, but it can be done before you invest in an R. The answer isn't to stand distant, the answer is to query close up before investing time.
Your mind and body may hang on to the trauma to protect you, this can be dealt with. Otherwise it will keep getting in the way, to prevent you from reverting to old patterns. It will be ok, you will get through it. You will put your role in place then it will move through your body to be behind you.
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Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
