She looks like herself I just don't see any spark in her eyes, any pep in her step, she just seems very flat to me. I don't see any excitement or compassion, everything appears superficial. Obviously I don't see her out with her friends and partying or on a daily basis so I try not to read much into it.
I have a few moments here and there but I do not experience anger on a regular basis and when I see her I don't feel angry either. I am confident with who I am and what I brought to the MR, her loss, she is a fool.
I feel some sadness at times but if I am real honest with myself she was a pretty crappy spouse. Truthfully I am better for it. I don't say that from a place of anger I say it from a place of confidence and out of respect for myself knowing that I sacrificed too much of myself and got little in return.
People change some for the better others for worse. It is what it is and there is nothing you can do about it. Lately I have been thinking about life experiences and if you live long enough you will experience good times and bad times, happy times and sad times. If I reflect on my life the happy times far outweigh the sad times and the good in my life drastically out numbers the bad. I truly am blessed and M so are you.
