You made your way back to your H, you are proof it's not a "pipe dream" I hear it all the time and hold out hope my WW like you sees the better option for all involved.
in the words of our good friend Shakespeare as spoken through our good friend Hamlet, "aye, there's the rub."
you see, my H did not hold on to the dream... he let it all go... he was not there waiting for me--hoping i would return... it is indeed a paradox... letting go which makes room for holding on... in this regard, you can't hold on in order to keep... adelante...