It’s been a loooong week. I was in a pretty bad car accident on Monday, on Wednesday we had to put down a beloved pet, and on Thursday one of my step kids had an important doctor’s appointment regarding an on-going health issue, and he may need (more) surgery in the near future.
My husband also had his annual check up this week. Months ago, he told me he was going to ask at this check up about getting his vasectomy reversed so we could try to have a baby together. I remembered that he had said this before he went to the appointment, but I didn’t remind him because (1) with everything else we had going on, it seemed like a silly thing for me to be concerned about and (2) part of me wanted to see if he would remember on his own. I know I’m carrying over baggage from my first marriage — my xH perpetually procrastinated on having children, we had the one child we did only because I pushed him into it, he resented me for not giving him more time, and he never wanted to discuss the issue because it stressed him out.
Now, I’m afraid to ask my husband what the doctor said because I’m afraid that either he didn’t, in which case I’m going to be hurt that he didn’t remember to do it/assume that he doesn’t really want to have a baby with me, or he did, but bringing it up will stress him out (and also worry that the fact that he didn’t think to tell me what the doctor said will also mean he doesn’t really want to have a baby with me).
I know I’m being silly, but I had to get that off my chest.
