This used to be easier - and a lot more fun, cont.

[DonH]

Sorry everyone, I never got back yesterday to do part II. Instead, I had to be talked off the ledge. I guess on the positive side, it took my mind off of this whole cruise dilemma thing. I am doing better now and trying to put things in perspective.

So I was on the phone yesterday with one of two FWB from recent years. I saw her this past weekend. We are mostly friends - actually pretty good friends, but every now and then... Anyhow, she knows all of the players in the cruise thing so I told her about it, and my concerns. I commented about the whole sharing a room with a guy and then I'd have to pretend I'm gay or would people talk? And there was dead silence on the phone. I've talked about my sixth sense before and it went on tilt. I said "What?" And her "nothing" was not even close to convincing. She's a terrible liar.

Turns out, multiple people asked her this past weekend if I'm gay! I was devastated. No offence to anyone. I have gay friends - one was a really good friend until he moved away to do act on Broadway in New York City - go figure. But I'm homophobic. I get an unpleasant reaction when Doodler talks about wearing a dress for crying out loud. It's just who I am. I hate to hug a man. Like I said, if nothing else, it took my mind off of the cruise.

Is that what it's come to now? Because I don't have a GF and have not for years, I am gay? But then she did explain... or at least this is what she claims... At least I don't act the part, so that was a little relief. I'm not an MMA alpha, but, I'm good looking (so she says) successful, in shape/thin, funny, they are baffled why I don't ever have a girlfriend with me. That sort of made sense - if it's true. Thankfully with at least these people she responded, "I can tell you first hand he's not gay, he's just very selective." She gets point there.

I've been doing so well being single. I really have. Even doing well since dropping the dating rope last year. But holy heck, do I need to at least get a GF for a couple of months here?

As I thought of it though, I'm guilty of the same thing with this lady I met a year ago and for many of the same reasons. Perhaps the world has gotten so accepting of this stuff that no GF in an otherwise "catch" means he's gay?

I'll still respond with part II and to JRuss's great comments. Just need to firmly get myself away from the window so as to not get back out on the ledge.