Thanks for fixing that for me. Just an update things got really ugly at the home the other night. I had just come back from visiting family after 4 days away from home, however I came back very angry. I broke a bunch of the rules, I engaged in talks about the R that I already knew the answers to, I was trying once again to get her to admit to the A but she didn't she only got madder, and then I demanding respect from her and her adult sons which also made things more difficult since her son decided to get aggressive and punch things and throw things. I needed to call the police on him and was kindly told I can not kick him out.

The next day I knew that this was truly over, she has zero love for me, zero respect and has no interest in me in anyway. I also recorded conversations between her and her son and they are openly mocking me and speaking about me in such a negative way. The level of disrespect as at a point where It's as if I was the worst person in the world. Now mind you I may have not been a perfect husband step father, but I was good to them. I was a good husband that give the family all kinds of tools and opportunities. I never miss treated them or disrespected them. I just feel like i'm dirt to them, they have all turned their back on me, I no longer recognize anyone in my home, besides my little girl.

So I think i'm finally coming to the realization that this relationship has run its course. I know it was not right for a very long time, sometimes I think i knew that from the beginning, I just really wanted it to work. She seemed on the surface as the right girl for me, but I think it was more superficial then anything else. Now I was trying to hold on just to take the hurt away, not because it was a good relationship. I want this pain to go away fast but I know it doesn't work that way.

My WW has treated me very poorly, she has dragged me threw the mud and has disrespected me and treated me like an crazy person. I can never respect someone like that has turned the back on me. I no longer wanted revenge, even though sometimes the thought does creep back in to my head. All I want is my peace in my life again and to be able to sleep the whole night through.


M:5 T:7
Me: 43, Wife: 43
Sx2: 8,8
D:5
BD: 1/13
Filed 2/07