Yes there are days like this. Awful days when it appears life is pain.

They will get less as long as your tread the path you are on. The trouble with apologies and pleading is that they make things worse. Often much much worse and lengthen the process. Can also backfire on you too, be used as tools.

I think you know this.

Most hurtful is loss of dreams that will never be, they will be replaced by new dreams.

I read on another thread about a momentary EA lapse that could haunt you. Don't let it. Your thoughts about finding someone attractive and then pulling back are just that thoughts, it's not an EA. It's just thinking about it the dismissing.

No one is thought police, you will find others attractive in due course. Then you can move beyond thought, a long long way off I know.

You are a mom above all, a loving mom.

V

Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose.
V 64, WAW