Good stuff guys, I agree I need to live in the present and stop my mind from wondering around in the past. I think it is going there because we are moving forward.
I just got back from our A's office. We went over everything that we agreed to on, I signed some papers that acknowledge the D so I wont be served and then we walked over to the court house to file the paperwork. Now it is up to our A to do her thing and wait for the 60 day window to expire.
So baring a miricle I should be officially D around the end of April!
I must say it was easier than I expected. I was happy, confident, didn't sulk, cry, wasn't angry, etc. The conversation was very light and lose, I even joked around some. Our R never came up, there was never a moment of weakness on part or hers about wanting to talk about us. Very non-emotional.
After it was over with she said "Thank you" for being you. I told her your welcome, asked her if she wanted to get some lunch, she declined said she wanted to go home and sleep. I said ok cool and off I went.
I find it pretty satisfying that she "Thanked me" for being me. Which hopefully gives you all some insight on who I am as a person. It also confirms to me that she knows what/who is walking away from and she is good with it. Truthfully I just don't think she could handle being a full time mom and wife any more.
Since my W and I have agreed on everything this should be a very smooth and easy process. I will be keeping the house and we will have joint/equal custody of our children with them alternating weeks between the both of us.