Rebuilding my life (ILYBNILWY? IDGAF 2)

[Holding]

H, how the hell are you dealing with yours? Because the "kid" button is a hell of a button for her to push. I'm trying to let it roll off my back, but it's hard as hell.

East, I'm not sure how I manage to deal with this. I guess I talk to a lot of people to vent and get their opinions. But I have moments where the emotions hit me hard and I feel helpless. Yesterday I was on the bedroom floor asking God what more he can take from me.

I have a philosophy that I'm free to make mistakes and mess up my life, but NOT D's, and everything that comes out of this woman's mouth makes me second guess myself.

It's admirable you want to do everything perfectly for your D, but it's not realistic. You will make mistakes when it comes to D, you're human. The trick is not to let XW's criticisms (and she will criticize) not get to you. I can't give much advice there as I'm still struggling with that myself. My only hope is that with repeated exposure I'll become desensitized.

With the text exchange y'all had, I don't think the content of it really matters. Nothing you say will please her. It's all about bringing you down into her level of emotion. If you look at the increasing size of the paragraphs as the text conversation went on, she did get you to go deeper and deeper to her level.

Maybe just start being more aware of how she is getting to you, and try to not let yourself go there. That's a start in the right direction.