I've not been here for long, but kinda in the same sitch except mine is worse. One thing that has made a difference for me is "NO MORE NEGATIVE SELF-TALK". Our minds have over 50,000 thoughts a day. But when we go through sitches, most of them are typically the same negative junk. This is a battle, except the greatest foe can be YOURSELF. Go to youtube and search for "marriage restorations", and see how others have come out stronger on the other side. I am amazed at how much better I feel. There is a balance between false hope and reality. But you are reading alot, getting info into your head about what you did and how you could do it better. That's awesome, because you can't fix what you won't own. Hope for best and prepare for the worst. Keep your head up, soldier. It's gonna work out, either way!
