Living in the Present, only Looking Forward

[Coconut]

As for me, I text'd with witty a few times on Sunday during the super bowl, her and her son are big Eagles fans, but the texts were strictly limited to the game. I didn't reach out yesterday, nor did she, and I have really been giving a lot of thought to what I want and how I feel.

She sent me a text this morning saying she guesses I don't want to talk to her anymore, that it was fine, and she hopes that I either found or find whatever it is that I'm looking for, and ended with Take Care. I replied to her and said that I would not disappear without saying something, but that I've been trying to figure out how I felt/feel, and I'd reach out to her tonight.

I'm still really confused, and I think that a big part of that confusion might be my fear of hurting her. On one hand, I would like to have a friend in town that I could go out with and have adult interaction, but on the other hand I had built her up in my mind so much that I don't look forward to hanging out with the real her, I felt very uncomfortable the whole time we were hanging out that night and I don't know if that uncomfortableness will go away. I don't want to hang out if I'm not comfortable and enjoying myself, but I also don't want to be selfish and hurt her by ending it.... grrr

gods honest truth, I feel like an azz for letting things go like they did, but just got caught up in the rush of it all (hence my previous post)..

Holding is right, we both said we wouldn't date, but I think we both were hoping for mutual attraction, maybe some sexual tension.

btw DonH, you can add another closed OLD account to your list, lol.