Living in the Present, only Looking Forward

[Coconut]

Hmm, DonH, you nailed it, I wanted it without being pressured into it. I won't say I'm not ready to date, but I am realizing I'm not ready to put myself out there to really find it.

As for socializing and interacting, it comes pretty easy, I have a pretty low self esteem, but I can not deny that people are drawn to me. I am not extroverted, but in many scenarios, I find myself being the alpha male in the room.

If I really had to break it down, my mom raised me to be "extra respectful" of women (due to her difficult childhood with her brothers), and I think it has minimized the amount of alpha I'm willing to project to woman...

But no matter, your post absolutely nailed it.