New Year, new thinking..

[Coly23]

AP and Job, thank you both so much for your posts.

I am not sure I want anyone, either family or friends with me. It almost seems like such an intimate thing, going through all the things that represented our marriage, it will just feel awkward. However, I haven't ruled it out yet.

AP, I am sure there is a lot of stuff he doesn't need however do you remember how he left the majority of his clothes and 95% of his suits in the wardrobe for nearly a year until I asked him to collect them. He now wears all the clothes he couldn't bring himself to pick up before.

Something else that is bugging me a bit is that he is very matter of fact about everything. His texts are chatty and friendly, asking me how I am, how my weekend is, how the decorating is going, blag, blah, blah... I know I should be grateful he doesnt spew at me like some but on the other hand his niceness grates on me. I have got into the habit of not responding to his niceties anymore because to me it all sounds so insincere. I do not want to be his friend!

In other news. Myself and D have had some e-mail contact with my ex-H, her Dad. We have now found out he has been married for about 7 years! D was upset. Not because he is married but because he didn't tell her for all that time. I told him I was happy for him and apologised for my part in the breakdown of our marriage. He in turn apologised for his part and we agreed that we will communicate for anything to do with D. I am hoping that their relationship will grow. They have a lot of catching up to do!

At least I have a whole week to build up the courage and strength to go through with Sunday. I just need lots of pep talks from you all to keep me on track!!