So, things took a bit of a strange turn! I got talking to my ex from 20 years ago as I said above, and initially I was going to leave it at knowing karma came around for her, but we kept on talking via IM. After chatting for a bit she broached the subject of what she did, and well she said it had a big impact on her life, she swore never to treat someone like that ever again and seemed genuinely remorseful and happy that I went on to have a decent life. Then we just kept on talking and haven’t stopped since! Now there is no chance of an R with her, firstly I just wouldn’t do it, once bitten twice shy even with a 20 year gap, and secondly she lives miles away in my hometown and has too many kids, I wouldn’t put that on my children and also I’m not looking for that right now. But, we’re meting up next weekend for something to eat and well I imagine Just a bit of fun from the way we’ve been talking.
Anyhow, these last two days I’ve had no nightmares about the current sitch with my W and her A. I wake up every night soaked through with sweat, it’s my first thought on waking and the last one when I go to sleep. These last two days have been an absolute god send, the distraction of chatting to a women and just having a laugh has been wonderful. Who would have thought that the first person to ever cheat on me would now be making me feel better!! It’s a bizarre situation.
The added bonus is that now I’m going to my hometown another ex has got in touch to meet up too the day before. We stayed friends after we split and it was all good, we’ve always stayed in contact and have no awkwardness, I was there for the birth of her daughter many years ago but moved away a long time ago. Some other friends are meeting up with me too.
What this has done is reminded me that I had a life before my W, and while we were young when we got together, I am still basically the same person, an individual that can be happy by myself!
