No I'm not desperate but still struggling to make it. I know I have to work and be solely responsible for my daughter and happiness or depression is secondary to just surviving. I'd be the happiest person in the world if my husband regrets what he did even if we can't stay married, just to know that those eleven years I sacrificed for him meant something, but unfortunately it's more likely he'll feel sorry for himself than for me.
I don't know. It was a very unlikely chain of events with the hurricane evacuation and my illness after my husband left in September. IF those things hadn't happened I could have practiced DB really well, just like the last time, and maybe we could have had a chance before my husband was out on the dating scene again.
Anyway I have a daughter who depends on me 100% so I'll keep trying to figure out a way to move and work and care for her.
