Struggling today. This GAL is easier said than done. I guess it is early days still, being only 9 weeks into this.

It's hard to see what W has become. She seems to be addicted to her phone and drinking too much. I barely see her at all in the evenings.

Last Sunday I was in a great mood, until she said that she was planning to go to a Pride event in August with OW. I have no issues with the event, but did take issue that they were planning things together so far ahead. I said I was hoping this would be resolved before then, to which she responded that I was rushing her.

No more R chat for a week. We were out together with the boys in a restaurant. She decided it would be a good time to tell me that she was planning to take a trip to Amsterdam after her course finishes in April. It's somewhere we've both been to before a couple of times. She was asking if I didn't mind, she was being quite evasive but eventually said it would be with OW.

When we got home she could see it was bothering me and said she thought it would be a good idea to ask in a public place so I wouldn't overreact. Now this is something that I have never done in the 16 years we've been together. So not sure where she got this idea from. She had also mentioned the trip last year, so I knew it was on her mind.

She went on to say there is never a good time to mention these plans. To which I said "tell me on Thursdays". She then said it would be too late to mention that she will be seeing the OW on Saturday next week. Which just happens to be our 9th wedding anniversary. She had forgotten when it was.

I feel like giving up on this.


Married 9, Together 16
M:39, W:41, S:11, S:7
BD: 12/3/2017
In house sep: 1/7/2018
EA: March 2017 (ongoing), PA: Yes
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