Hello...can you hear me?

[Georgiabelle]

It’s been a while. I read along but don’t post much right now. I love catching up with my DB peeps.

S14 and I are going to see his favorite NBA player this week. Wahoo! We certainly won’t be going for the home team (they are terrible) but we are psyched to see the best. My baby turned 8 last week. Where has the time gone?

I won an award our company sales meeting. I work for a huge company and according to my coworkers, no one from our brand wins anything. I was shocked and thrilled. This particular job was one that was open to me a couple of years ago. I am working with some individuals I’ve worked with before and they are friends of mine. I hesitated to make the switch a couple of years ago because I was concerned about many things. I am grateful the universe give me another opportunity and I guess it was a matter of timing. It’s a fun job with good peeps. I work from home and it’s super flexible and it’s over 6 figures. I am super grateful for this opportunity.

My brother wants my mom to come stay with me a while. My mother and I have never gotten along because I cannot describe to people who are more different. I told him that it’s fine for her to come stay for a bit, however she will not be happy. But I’m going to make the best of it and try to make it fun.

I’m still dating the guy, although I don’t consider it serious. I enjoy spending time with him and are usually see him a few times a month. We do have fun together. However, after his behavior this last summer where he essentially disappeared except for email for a few months, I sort of just feel different. I certainly understand that he was going through a hard time and I get it. I do. However, something flipped for me. I guess I don’t spend much time thinking about the future when it comes to relationships. I’m sort of a hear and now girl.

Which brings me to this. I have lots of guy friends. They have asked me to join them on their yearly guys trip. I realize this probably sounds odd to many of you. I did go for a couple of days a couple of years ago. And I had fun. Nothing happens between me and the guys. We’ve been friends for years. For those of you that have followed along, I probably fall somewhere under the very vast umbrella of asexuality. I would like to be clear. I find many people attractive, beautiful, cute, handsome, etc. But I rarely experience attaction. As a matter of fact, I can count the number of times I have on one hand in my life. It’s actually less than one hand. When I do experience it, it’s actually very confusing to me. It’s very difficult for me to explain and I’m sure many people lost me about six sentences ago. I’ve always beat to my own drum-what can I say? Which brings me to the offer to go on this trip again. One guy who is going is not a friend of mine. He is the person that I did experience that feeling with a couple of years ago and we did hook up. (Not the sexay times). I have seen him several times since then and made an a$$ of myself last spring. Oh well. While I am very attracted to him, I know it is not reciprocated. So, I know if I go on this trip nothing will happen. I’m afraid it might get confusing for me mentally, but on the flipside I think it may be good for me to be reminded that the universe doesn’t always give us what we want. Even though I’ve known that for years. Hopefully, if I go, I won’t feel too weird. I just have to remind myself that everyone likes something different. Sigh. This may be a good test of my mental fortitude.

Hope everyone is well. Xoxo