Forgot to mention some of my other updates...the mortgage one was just on my mind as it was the most recent.
My cracked molar is out, I've been back to the dentist and she said the gum is healing nicely. Normal service is resumed and I can eat crunchy food again. Very happy about that
She said that she can also fix the bits that I chipped off the back of my front teeth by grinding them at night. You can see from the front that there's not something quite right at the moment, but only if you know what you're looking for. I feel really happy about that as it was affecting my confidence a little bit and I guess I still felt a little angry that I was having to deal with that. Anyway, I have an appointment in the diary for that now.
I'm considering getting the clear thing to straighten your front teeth (mine are ever so slightly crooked, as my retainer fell off shortly after they were sorted first time round (many, many years ago). I'll wait until after my next appointment and make a time for a consultation to see what's involved. The consultations are free, so it would only be my time that is involved.
I feel proud of myself. I've always been utterly terrified of the dentist (to the point of almost having a panic attack when I was there, and the dentist suggesting I get the sedation drip thing). So yeah, I feel proud of myself.
I found a loving kindness guided meditation on Youtube to listen to. And really focussed on listening to that for my own benefit. I felt great again afterwards, very gentle, soft and deserving of my own (and other's) love and kindness.
Love and kindness and gratitude are the way forwards for me, for sure...
