Last night was pretty rough. I ran worked out and ran errands with the wife. Had a generally pleasant conversation where I listened intently, but I have a few small reminders that everything I do/so will be taken in the most negative light possible.
I said one thing (over the evening) that seemed like I wasn't processing/listening and she got frustrated and stomped off.
Another careless comment was taken as invalidating.
Don't get me wrong. What I said COULD be taken that way, but I'd say I'm doing the right thing 99% of the time. And that 1% is taken in the most negative light possible.
There was more of the same this morning. She'll be pleasant enough, but there's a short tempered anger lurking just beneath the surface. She is outwardly appearing to be all happy and finding herself, and she IS making an effort (meditating, seeking IC, etc..) but it seems like she's seeking a lot of external validation on social media, and like the happiness is only skin deep. You know the new age people who are all serene and well adjusted, but there's an inner rage just under the surface, yeah, that's her right now.
Anyone out there? My entries are starting to make me feel like I'm talking to myself. I would LOVE feedback on my situtation. I feel like there are elements of both MLC and her just being "done".
Me, H-39, W-33 T11, M3 No children Bomb 10/17 - "Not sure what she wants" Bomb 2 12/17 - forced convo it did not go well. W moved out 3/18 OM Confirmed 4/1 D Final 9/27/18