Picking up Her MESS #2

[marina7]

Journaling,
Lately it feels like an elephant on my chest, panic attacks and feelings like I felt on BD April 2017, I been wanting to write a letter to W I wanted to apologize to her if I offended her by packing snacks for kids last weekend, W was angry for me doing that if she only knew it was out of good intentions, my therapist said it was a bad idea she feels W is in a bad place to even care what I think, as long I did it with good intentions that's what matters which I did out of good faith.

S8 lately been emotional he was the one that didn't cry or show emotions through this nightmare finally feelings are coming out D9 is doing good she tells me she wish W would call them or something, D9 ask does W really cares about us. I honestly can't answer this for her but I assure you that I freaking love you three to death.
This is exactly what W doesn't see the damage she has done.

Taking it a day at a time