Dusty, I posted about the same thing recently - the realization of all the things I did wrong and wishing to have a second chance. I punished my husband so much for his affair that I became a bad wife and he avoided me until he finally left. I guess marriages that are successful still have problems, but the spouses give each other second chances. I guess our spouses simply don't love us anymore and don't see any reason to give us another chance. Wish they could at least do it for our kids. I hope this passes quickly for you so you can figure out your life after divorce.
