JuJuB and JellyB, I really enjoy reading the discussions between the 2 of you. There's some great reflection and advice in here.
In going through my own D, I realized I was emotionally unavailable (though my XW was too). I don't think that's who I initially was, but it's who I became in the M. My IC gave me a great book on it by Patti Henry. There's a section for women that also helps them examine why they're attracted to emotionally unavailable men. I wanted so hard to work on it, but this was after BD and my XW was having none of it. At least I've learned I can open up to others about my D, and work on my emotions more in that respect.
Me-47,XW-43 S13,S16 M:18 BD:4-23-17 W filed:7-17-17 (5 months of in-house separation hell) W moved out:1-6-18 D granted:2-15-18 Decree signed:3-29-18