SD Diary. Thursday morning about an hour later. When I went back upstairs she asked me why I was so long making the tea. I couldn't tell her I was posting our life story on the Internet on a sex bulletin board so I didn’t answer. Instead I asked her whether she did not like me cuddling her because I felt that she had rejected me. She said that she didn’t like being woken up (despite the fact that she had already been to the bathroom and the radio was on). I told her that I found it difficult to read her signs of love for me but I found it easy to read her rejections. I also mused that perhaps she could not read my physical touch and words as being “love” and that I only give her one tenth of the physical attention that I would like to give and most of the time I am holding myself back. I pointed out that we had been together over 20 years and we had another 40 years together to look forward to so was it so wrong of me to want to improve things? She made no significant reply but rushed off to the bathroom with a face like thunder saying she was upset. I remained composed. Later, as she left for work she came to me and gave me a better than usual peck so I was left feeling that I had done the right thing. SD
