Oh Nicole.... I don't know what to say. I know it explains a lot of his behavior, but I also know it doesn't make you feel any better.
You are doing the right things, focusing on yourself and your daughter. You will feel better, but it's going to take a long time. Even yesterday I was sad and missing my wife, but it gets better and easier. Keep yourself busy, and enjoy your daughter.
I wish I had something more helpful to tell you. Be strong, for yourself and your daughter.
M:23 T:26 Me:53, Wife: 60 S:18 D:16 filed 7/16 W moved out 4/28/17